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| A jaded callgirl...A fledgling hooker...A night from hell |
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I recently got involved in the adult industry, and I am learning so many things about what's really going on in my surroundings. I've met so many different people. Each with their own lives, their own stories, and personalities. And one question comes to my mind, how can so many women sleep with other men when they are clearly very much in love with their boyfriends or husbands? There's one girl that I met and her name is Jordan. She is 23 years old, full time student and has a 2 year old boy. The nicest girl I've ever met. We talked for hours about how special our men are to us, how great they are. The funny thing is that, we had sex with another man right after. You see, Jordan and I work as escorts. I had the pleasure of having a job with her out of town, but no matter how bubbly she is, I could still see sadness in her eyes. The feeling that, I feel every time. A mixture of guilt, shame, regret, and disgust. Guilty because we had knowingly cheated on the ones we love the most. Shame because we had knowingly done something that is very wrong. Regret because we fear the risk of loosing the ones we love. And disgust knowing our bodies, who we share so intimately with the person we love, the person we say our bodies only belong to, are used by men who are strangers to our lives. I see in her eyes how much she wants to stop, but there's one thing that keeps her from walking away. She needs to provide for her child. Im not gonna get into why I do the same thing she does, but I guess my point is, I know everyone has a reason for cheating. I just want to know how we can all do it?
